When I first realised that I had GAD (generalised anxiety disorder), I hopped straight onto Google. Obviously. The symptoms were like reading my own list of GP visits so I was pretty convinced. Here’s the list from NHS Choices:
- a sense of dread
- feeling constantly “on edge”
- difficulty concentrating
- withdrawal from social contact
- time off sick
- lack of self-esteem
- a noticeably strong, fast or irregular heartbeat (palpitations)
- muscle aches and tension
- trembling or shaking
- dry mouth
- excessive sweating
- shortness of breath
- stomach ache
- feeling sick
- pins and needles
- difficulty falling or staying asleep (insomnia)
- development of coping mechanisms
Sounds like a blast doesn’t it?! Well I know that a lot of these things are common, so don’t jump to any conclusions – it only becomes Anxiety with a capital A when it effects your life in a significant and negative way.
I remember I’d been searching each of the individual symptoms for months now, and remember seeing anxiety as a cause of most of them and brushed it off. Only now that I was looking at the specific list was I willing to accept that the cause of all of my troubles may well be mental.
Suddenly I started to have flashbacks to childhood memories that now made sense! I’d been having panic attacks and bursts of anxiety for a long, long, long, long, time. And some of them are pretty hilarious. Although not at the time!
I’m going to start sharing some of these experiences as and when I think of them. Feel free to join in!
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