(Originally posted on Instagram)
pleased about as my morning sickness was horrible. I only had 4 weeks but the nausea reminded me of when I was first getting used to SSRIs which was quite upsetting, this beautiful life journey being tarred with the same feelings. I was also so ill and upset that I began wishing my days away and sleeping more so that I didn’t have to be awake anymore.
That again was a horrible reminder of my darkest days with depression previously. I knew it was short-lived and I had my amazing husband with me so I knew I could do it. I was bloody grateful for the meds though. Since week 12 I’ve been living that glowy feeling they promise you and life has never been better. I didn’t need a baby to fulfil me or anything but it sure has made lots of things shinier and more exciting now. At this point I decided that I would try again to reduce and maybe stop.
My doctor agreed as I’d had no problems dropping down before and she said that this was a great indicator that the meds had done their job! So down I went to 25mg for a couple of weeks and then 25mg every other day, again without any effects but with my doctors watching me incredible closely for any signs of pre-, ante- or post-natal depression. That’s the next test and I know I’m at such a high risk of it but with a great doctor and wonderful support systems, I’m totally ok if I have to go back on.
I’m in this for the long haul and a short trip back to sertraline land will be no great sadness to me. Medication is great if it works, so bring it on when the time comes!
Love to you all. 💛💛💛